25 Nov

Meanwhile in Ferguson…that’s the facebook post, friend Chris Tera posted tonight, followed by a Happy Thanksgiving greeting, admittedly a sarcastic one.

As I waited to hear the grand jury decision on the Michael Brown case, my tv turned to CNN two hours before the announcement was to be made, my stomach tensed, and I couldn’t help but be reminded of feeling this exact same way while I waited for the Rodney King verdict.  Tonight, I scrolled down both my twitter and facebook feeds, keeping up with what people were feeling.  Many black people seemed to doubt an indictment, but still there was hope that for once, justice would prevail.

Then prosecutor, Robert McCulloch, finally came on the television at 9:00 p.m. Eastern Time, and gave his lengthy, condescending, as one friend described “knife turning,” slanted completely in favor of police officer Darren Wilson dissertation of the process by which the grand jury came to their decision, which according to them showed there was no probable cause to indict the officer.

Three hours later, I am still sickened by this decision.  I always say that I am not a political person, but as a human being, how can I not be extremely sad, disappointed, even angry, at the decision to not prosecute the officer who shot and killed Michael Brown, and will now not even go to trial before a jury to decide his fate?  How can I as a white person not stand up for what is happening to far too many black men and black boys in this country?  How can any of us not see there is something very wrong here, and that all of us, white people especially, have to care, and take action to be part of the solution–to recognize that there are systems in place that are unequal, that black boys’ and men’s lives are being taken under circumstances that white boys and white men’s lives are not.  As black people across the country, and people all around the world who are watching are feeling, can’t we show them, that, yes, black lives matter?  Because black people are truly feeling that they don’t.  Tonight’s verdict proved this to them again.

I am still processing tonight’s events, and what that means for us as a nation, and know that we have to, as Michael Brown’s parents urged us to do, focus on positive actions we can take to make the world a better place–one where black boys are not being shot and killed for carrying toy guns, or stealing a package of cigars, or wearing hoodies on their walk home.  We need to dismantle the systems that allow this to happen without repercussion.  We need to all of us work together to do this, to balance the scales that are way out of whack, to do the right thing that will show every life is a life to be valued.

Here is my facebook poem-a-day, a tribute to Michael Brown and Ferguson, made from my friends’ status updates.


facebook poem-a-day (from your status updates)


ferguson decision is imminent
stay safe, st. louis friends
praying for the people
in ferguson
grief is the
price of love
And there it is.
this is a
fucking heartbreak.
this man has
no decency.
he is on national tv
turning the knife
is that dude
still talking?
we got the message
so stfu already!!!!
no indictment
in ferguson
go figure…
our lives seem
to have no value
guiliani said
that ish
out loud
to your face!
“southern trees
bear strange fruit…”
and apparently so do
the trees in ‪#‎ferguson‬
you cannot
fix a problem if
you won’t even
admit that it is
in fact a problem!
my heart is heavy…
about to
a few
insensitive folk
“communities of color
aren’t just making
this up”
praying for peace
to all parents,
the verdict is out:
go home, hug and
kiss your children
and tell them
you love them

Thanks to contributors: Chris Tera, Mark Santow, LeAnn Coleman Nash, Andrea J Sparkman, Kelly Quinn, Junot Díaz, Donald King (2x), Marcia Wilson, Warren Leach, Carmen J. Head, Marg Cappelli, Denitra Letrice, Ken Harge, Karen Oldham-Kidd, Wendy Grossman (quote from President Obama), David Hayes, Robert L Burnside






  1. karen kidd November 25, 2014 at 1:11 am #

    Thank you, Wendy. This is wonderful. If only everyone of non black ethnicity were as compassionate as you. ~KoK…

    • Wendy Jane November 25, 2014 at 10:26 pm #

      Thank you, Karen. And I hope that I can do more concrete action to be part of the solution of this big, big problem, we who are part of the majority, oppressor group created when it comes to structural racism.


  2. Sherry Gordon November 25, 2014 at 6:29 am #

    Dear Wendy Jane,

    Hi, there, my precious, dearest, and sweet white sisterfriend, Wendy Jane! Oh, my precious sister, your very kind and lovingly caring and sensitive blog post article this is in which you have acknowledged my and other black persons, you have heard us and our pain with this atrocious decision, you have validated our pain and yours, too, my sweet white sisterfriend, over this egregiously unfair and unjust decision!!!!!! Your wonderful and so in touch and in tune blog post article just went straight to my heart, sister!!!!!!! I am so, so incredibly heartbroken and heartsick, yet I am so, so sadly not too surprised! I know that your dearest and darling precious heart, Wendy Jane, is just so broken and so incredibly sad as well. I love how you have acknowledged and validated myself and other black persons in all of this, and you have heard and listened to closely, and acknowledged and validated our voices and our suffering. I so love your so beautiful and eloquent words, my sweet white sisterfriend who you are so, so very much as the magnificent and wonderful white woman who you are, Wendy Jane, and my precious friend and sister!!!!!! You are our true blue ally in your allyship in solidarity, sister, not only my dearest white sisterfriend, but also a friend and sister to other black persons, other persons of color, and ultimately to all other persons because you love our Good God and you love all human beings, Wendy Jane!

    Sister, my stomach also has been tensing as well! As I watch the news on TV, listen to NPR, and see all of the news all over the Internet, my tummy continues to tense up. I am just so sick at heart, friend, as I know you are, too, sister, and your poor stomach! I, too, am absolutely appalled at the prosecutor’s very biased and condescending overly drawn out speech. We could have been spared all of that! Sisterfriend Wendy Jane, you are so right on and on point when you say that black men and black boys lives need to be safer and more protected, and for all black persons, and that indeed black lives do matter! Thank-you, thank-you, thank-you, my and our dearest and precious white sisterfriend! Just to be heard and listened to, to be acknowledged and validated as a black person in all of this, and in general, with the ever present viciousness of racism, to be heard and listened to, and acknowledged and validated by you, sister, just means the world to me and to other black persons!!!!!! I just so love and cherish you, my friend and sister, Wendy Jane, and all of you wonderful white persons who are our allies in solidarity are just so great and empowering!!!!!!

    The Facebook poem by you, my friend, and the others is so right on and relevant! It just so perfectly sums up the very atrocity of this decision, and our pain, Wendy Jane, your pain, sisterfriend, and all of our collective pain, grief, and sorrow over this horrid decision! Your entire blog post article has just gone straight to my heart, Wendy Jane, and your very sensitive and lovingly caring words so moved me and touched my very heart, and brought me to healing and cleansing tears!!!!!!! Thank-you!!!!!!

    Wendy Jane, please all of you, Leni, Darla, and all of your precious and beloved, dearest and darling family have a Very Happy and Very Blessed Thanksgiving!!!!!! I pray and wish for all of you such a very fun Thanksgiving just overflowing with bountiful blessings for all of you!!!!!! I, too, will still look for the good and the positive despite the bad news about the decision, and I will rejoice in and praise our Good God about all of the bountiful blessings which God has bestowed upon me! Wendy Jane, you are one of my blessings I thank and praise our Good God for-for our friendship and our sisterhood, Wendy Jane! I am so glad that I found you, friendsister, and your very inspirational and empowering blog!!!!!! Happy Thanksgiving, Wendy Jane, full of much overflowing bountiful blessings, sister!!!!!!

    Very Warmly and Sincerely For Always,

    Your lesbian black sisterfriend for always in solidarity, Sherry Gordon

    • Wendy Jane November 25, 2014 at 10:24 pm #

      Hello Sherry,

      Thank you so, so much for your heartfelt response. I hear how hurt you are, and in the emotional state I was in last night–well the words just tumbled out, and I hoped that I could capture all that I was feelin–profound sadness, loss, anger, the bewilderment at how our country can keep letting black people down.

      Thank you for sharing with me how you were feeling as you kept up with the announcement and it’s aftermath. I do, like you say, want to focus on the positive and what we all can do to move things forward in a positive way.

      I wish you and yours a wonderful Thanksgiving. I am very, very grateful to have you as my sisterfriend.

      Wendy Jane

  3. Margaret November 26, 2014 at 11:00 am #


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